Scott Disick finally opened up about the root of his addiction issues on Keeping Up With The Kardashians episode on Dec. 3, and it was the most vulnerable fans have ever seen him.
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"That was the first trip I haven't been on with my own kids," he explained to the Kardashian brood on the episode. "I was so jealous and scared that I charted a plane and brought a bunch of people to Mexico that I didn't even know just how to make myself feel better. ALl it's done is make myself feel worse."
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Scott also explained that he hasn't been able to cope with dealing with his addiction problems and losing both of his parents alone.
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But during Scott's confession time, Khloé fired back: "You say, ‘I don’t have a family and I don’t have all these things’ and then we give you one. Why do you destroy it?’"
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He explained that he was hurt and ashamed, and began to cry as he detailed his loneliness.
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"I’m living in a house by myself,” he cried. “I want to pick up the phone and call my mom and dad. It’s not as easy as you think when you have addiction issues. You did so much for me for so many years and it kills me.”
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“I didn’t want anyone to think that I had no care in the world,” he said. “I’ve never been this unhappy in my life. If I didn’t have those kids [Mason, Penelope, and Reign], I would kill myself. I have them and I’m going to be here and I’m going to make it right for them.”
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What's more, Scott hoped for a possible reconciliation with Kourtney, too. "I want to be the man you always wanted. I’m going to hate myself for the rest of life if I don’t at least try. If I don’t make a change now it’ll never be able to be okay. I love you guys and miss you guys.”
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Kourtney, 36, hasn't officially taken Scott back yet, but it looks like the duo is starting 2016 off on the right foot
at the movies on Jan. 3.
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"That was the first trip I haven't been on with my own kids," he explained to the Kardashian brood on the episode. "I was so jealous and scared that I charted a plane and brought a bunch of people to Mexico that I didn't even know just how to make myself feel better. ALl it's done is make myself feel worse."
Photo credit: Splash News
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Scott also explained that he hasn't been able to cope with dealing with his addiction problems and losing both of his parents alone.
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But during Scott's confession time, Khloé fired back: "You say, ‘I don’t have a family and I don’t have all these things’ and then we give you one. Why do you destroy it?’"
Photo credit: Splash News
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He explained that he was hurt and ashamed, and began to cry as he detailed his loneliness.
Photo credit: Splash News
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"I’m living in a house by myself,” he cried. “I want to pick up the phone and call my mom and dad. It’s not as easy as you think when you have addiction issues. You did so much for me for so many years and it kills me.”
Photo credit: Splash News
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“I didn’t want anyone to think that I had no care in the world,” he said. “I’ve never been this unhappy in my life. If I didn’t have those kids [Mason, Penelope, and Reign], I would kill myself. I have them and I’m going to be here and I’m going to make it right for them.”
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What's more, Scott hoped for a possible reconciliation with Kourtney, too. "I want to be the man you always wanted. I’m going to hate myself for the rest of life if I don’t at least try. If I don’t make a change now it’ll never be able to be okay. I love you guys and miss you guys.”
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Kourtney, 36, hasn't officially taken Scott back yet, but it looks like the duo is starting 2016 off on the right foot
at the movies on Jan. 3.
