Gisele Bündchen might seem to live a charmed life. She’s a world famous supermodel, she’s married to football legend Tom Brady, and she has two adorable kids, Vivian and Benjamin. But life hasn’t always been so easy for Gisele. In her new book, Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life, the star opens up about her battle with anxiety, panic attacks, and suicidal thoughts! The memoir drops next week, but Radaronline.com got an early copy. Click through the gallery to find out what she said.
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“Inevitably when I think back to a time in my early twenties, I remember that I felt so helpless that I questioned whether I wanted to live," the 38-year-old wrote. "I was living 100 miles per hour, smoking, drinking, eating badly, not sleeping much, and living pretty much out of a suitcase."
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The Brazil native experienced her first panic attack in 2003. They reoccured for the next nine months. Her first came on a plane, but they popped up in lots of small spaces. "Suddenly I didn’t feel right about getting on elevators. I felt I couldn’t breathe.”
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“It felt like everything in my life was going to kill me. First it was airplanes, then elevators, Then it was tunnels and hotels and modeling studios and cars. Now it was my own apartment. Everything had become a cage, and I was the animal trapped inside, panting for air," she wrote. Doctors prescribed her Xanax, but she threw them out and focused on meditation and yoga instead.
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Around that time, she was also dating actor
Leonardo DiCaprio. She told
People that her soul-searching made her realize she was "alone," which led to their breakup.
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Gisele told
People that at her worst she considered suicide. “I actually had the feeling of, ‘If I just jump off my roof, this is going to end, and I never have to worry about this feeling of my world closing in.’”
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Gisele married Tom in 2009. He's also gotten into the book writing game, releasing
The TB12 Method: How to Achieve a Lifetime of Peak Performance in 2017. But he got a lot of blowback when he revealed that he thought
staying hydrated meant you didn't need to use sunblock.
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What do you think of Gisele's suicide revelation? Sound off in the comments!
“Inevitably when I think back to a time in my early twenties, I remember that I felt so helpless that I questioned whether I wanted to live," the 38-year-old wrote. "I was living 100 miles per hour, smoking, drinking, eating badly, not sleeping much, and living pretty much out of a suitcase."
The Brazil native experienced her first panic attack in 2003. They reoccured for the next nine months. Her first came on a plane, but they popped up in lots of small spaces. "Suddenly I didn’t feel right about getting on elevators. I felt I couldn’t breathe.”
Photo credit: INSTARImages
“It felt like everything in my life was going to kill me. First it was airplanes, then elevators, Then it was tunnels and hotels and modeling studios and cars. Now it was my own apartment. Everything had become a cage, and I was the animal trapped inside, panting for air," she wrote. Doctors prescribed her Xanax, but she threw them out and focused on meditation and yoga instead.
Around that time, she was also dating actor
Leonardo DiCaprio. She told
People that her soul-searching made her realize she was "alone," which led to their breakup.
Photo credit: INSTARImages
Gisele told
People that at her worst she considered suicide. “I actually had the feeling of, ‘If I just jump off my roof, this is going to end, and I never have to worry about this feeling of my world closing in.’”
Gisele married Tom in 2009. He's also gotten into the book writing game, releasing
The TB12 Method: How to Achieve a Lifetime of Peak Performance in 2017. But he got a lot of blowback when he revealed that he thought
staying hydrated meant you didn't need to use sunblock.
What do you think of Gisele's suicide revelation? Sound off in the comments!
