Pregnancy Nightmare! Chrissy Teigen Admits Why This Would Be ‘Heartbreaking If It Doesn’t End Up Happening'

The 30-year-old opened up to SELF about her struggle to get pregnant — and hope to conceive again — with hubby John Legend, 37.

“You don’t want to get your hopes up, but of course, you do,” she said of their struggle with IVF.

“One of the things that saved us is that we never did that real fertility thing, where you’re looking at the ovulation clock and saying, ‘Honey, get home; we have to do it right now,’" Chrissy explained. "John would say, ‘Let’s never be that couple that has to schedule sex, where we put it on the calendar and say, OK, this is our night.’ So before we did IVF, even if we went a few days or a week, our feeling was, it’s cool, who cares?”

The couple decided to keep their struggle private until they became pregnant. Then she claims the support they got was overwhelming. But now that the dust has settled on the news, the musician and the cookbook author are planning for their little girl to arrive mid-April.

“I’ve truly never been alone with a kid. I don’t think I’ve changed a diaper! I’m like, how many times a day do they go?” Chrissy told the publication. “I’m a worrier, and he’s very laid-back,” she says. “I like to ask him little questions, like, ‘What would you do if our kid is 16 or 17, and we’re at dinner celebrating and having wine. Would you let her have some wine?’ And he’s like, ‘Yeah.’ And I’m like, ‘I don’t know if I would!’ I am the crazier one in the relationship, and he’s more relaxed, for sure.”

“I think I’ll probably be pregnant all through my 30s,” she added. "It’ll be heartbreaking if it doesn’t end up happening, but hopefully it will. We’ve got some embryos on hold. I hope that when we do have those four kids, John and I can look at each other and know that it’s us against them. We are going to love the s**t out of our kids, but we are going to team up and fight in pairs!”