The drama continues on this weekend’s episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, but this time, it’s what happened before the family’s trip to Thailand that causes emotions to flow. In a sneak peek from this week’s episode, Khloe Kardashian discusses her impending divorce from Lamar Odom with step-brothers Brody and Brandon Jenner.
“Can’t find him,” she admits when asked if she’s spoken to her ex. “He went to New York and ever since he’s been there he’s been missing. So, yeah, I’m pretty upset about it, but I don’t know what else to do.”
Regardless of what the pro basketball player put her through by cheating and using drugs, she somberly adds, “I just need to make sure he’s okay though. I don’t know why, but I need to.”
From there, in a confessional, the reality star reveals that her emotions about the situation will never go away. “Lamar stuff will weigh on me for the rest of my life,” she says. “I mean, the marriage didn’t work out, not because of me. It wasn’t what I wanted. So for the rest of my life I’m going to deal with that and worry about him and think about him and want, just to protect him.”
Things got the most real, though, when Khloe alludes to her ex’s cheating (again). “No one knew until he got so sloppy and started messing with all those girls, and all those girls want is their ten seconds of fame,” she tells the family. “I can’t really talk about it, I’m going to start crying.”
The full episode airs this Sunday night at 9 p.m. on E!